Month: August 2014

Overwhelming FIRSTS

School starts Monday.

Holy. S***.

SCHOOL STARTS MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Pretty sure this is what I looked like when I was talking to my team today. The good news: we all had this look on our a face today.

I have school supplies everywhere. I have un-laminated things everywhere.  I have lesson plans un-done, curriculum materials missing, and a couple empty spots on my walls.

i walked past a teacher who had all the supplies put away.  I saw books on her students desks and stuff on every wall.  In her classroom I saw everything I wanted: organization, assurance, and success.  In my classroom I saw empty walls and school supplies.

But as I cried in my car 5 min later I started to think about something: this other teacher has been teaching for at least 3 years.  The teacher next to her has been teaching for longer than 10 years. So no, my classroom isn’t going to look like theirs this year. Or next year. Or maybe even the year after that. What my classroom does have is me and my devotion to my students. I might not have all the walls covered, but that gives me space for students to fill. I might not have my school supplies put away, but that gives my students the chance to help me figure out where to put things.

My first classroom isn’t founded on what others are doing around me. Instead, my first class and classroom is a going to be founded on US – my students, myself, and how we work as a group.  It’s going to be messy. It’s going to be a disaster. But this classroom will be something no other group I teach will be: uniquely and unequivocally OUR FIRST YEAR.

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By the by, the word “first” starts to look funny after a while….

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Overwhelming FIRSTS

School starts Monday.

Holy. S***.

SCHOOL STARTS MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

image

Pretty sure this is what I looked like when I was talking to my team today. The good news: we all had this look on our a face today.

I have school supplies everywhere. I have un-laminated things everywhere.  I have lesson plans un-done, curriculum materials missing, and a couple empty spots on my walls.

i walked past a teacher who had all the supplies put away.  I saw books on her students desks and stuff on every wall.  In her classroom I saw everything I wanted: organization, assurance, and success.  In my classroom I saw empty walls and school supplies.

But as I cried in my car 5 min later I started to think about something: this other teacher has been teaching for at least 3 years.  The teacher next to her has been teaching for longer than 10 years. So no, my classroom isn’t going to look like theirs this year. Or next year. Or maybe even the year after that. What my classroom does have is me and my devotion to my students. I might not have all the walls covered, but that gives me space for students to fill. I might not have my school supplies put away, but that gives my students the chance to help me figure out where to put things.

My first classroom isn’t founded on what others are doing around me. Instead, my first class and classroom is a going to be founded on US – my students, myself, and how we work as a group.  It’s going to be messy. It’s going to be a disaster. But this classroom will be something no other group I teach will be: uniquely and unequivocally OUR FIRST YEAR.

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By the by the word “first” starts to look funny after a while…..

New Name. New School. New Relationship Status.

Everything has changed since my last post. How, you ask? Let me count (literally) the ways…

1. I graduated (whoop!) with my masters from the University of Illinois.

2. I turned 26 and got booted off my parents’ insurance (less-whoop)

3. I got ENGAGED!!! That’s right, Potential Mr. Teach, or PMT, is now Future Mr. Teach, or FMT.

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Picked it out all on his own. Fancy, no?

4. I submitted countless job applications.  I think the total number came to around 75?

5. I finally got a job as a first grade teacher (super woot!!!) and I could not be more excited to start the school year!

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How I felt after getting the offer! I may have refrained from these exact movements, considering I was eating lunch with the future MOL at a Jimmy Johns….

So,  yep, with all the change I thought it would be appropriate to change the blog to something more long-term.  Enter Confessions of a Novice Educator: Making first-decade teachers look good since 2014.  I’ll use this as a place to celebrate the successes, vent the frustrations, grow from mistakes, and muddle through the struggling lessons.  If there is one thing I hope my readers will get from my blog it is this: 

We all start somewhere, and I am a teacher starting at Level 0.  I will give my all to my students, but I will learn from mistakes.  I am a strategic thinker, observer, and substitute parent at times.  I am a teacher, and I am a human being just like you.

Voila.  New me.

(Also, before I go I have to tell you that this new me made a class schedule today.  It feels weird, making a schedule for 20 six year olds to follow.  It also feels weird having a classroom.  A good weird.  Like I’ve been handed the keys to an apartment in Teacher City and am officially a resident…weirdly awesome)